I have been so free... well more precisely - unemployed nowadays. Just went to Sharon's bday in Zuok and found that she still maintained good friendship with her old school friend in Taman Sea. Come to think of it, how come I can't maintain my good old friendship?
So I went to my old treasure box upstairs and took out one of my diary and a farewell book. People usually says that your childhood memories is the best and most precious. Well, apparently this does not apply to everybody. The moment I opened the book and read all the old stories, I see myself as a lonely and depressing kid in my old schoo l days. Wow, is that really me? People hate me for being myself..... they complained me as someone who is smelly, talkative and etc. Was I really smelly back there? Maybe yes maybe no... but people just like to associate me with that so that they can really have a conversation to go on (Well this is what written on my farewell book) Was I really talkative? But I just like to express my opinion back there..... people in my old school just can't accept me as being myself....
What is more pathetic is that these people can still make that as a topic until today, this is what I get from one of the many facebook photo comments (not to forget to mention many other comments as well):
January 13 at 9:47pm · Report
January 13 at 9:49pm · Report
January 13 at 9:49pm · Report
This was taken during the announcement of SPM result and people still make that as a topic to laugh until TODAY .. WTF... the comments is like telling you : "you are always a loser and smelly!" This is not being said by just simply anyone in the school but somebody who were the top scholar, top result and one of the best student in the school.... Frankly, I would never dare to admit that I was from Sam Tet.... if it is like the advice given on the farewell book where I should ignore all these stupid comments and remarks and be myself, I have done that for the past 5 years but I still can't accept that they will still talk about it until TODAY!... How would you feel if all your friends are like this?
Everytime when I meet an old friend to yam cha or anything... they will always start the conversation as " chao geh....." I am hurt and deeply hurt... how come 5 years de still like this... haiz.... Maybe this is the main reason why I didn't really want to keep in touch with them at all...
At least all my new friends after my secondary school has a totally different view on me after I got the scholarship and went abroad. I guess this is why I start to believe the story of ugly duckling ..... Everytime when I tell my melbourne friend's that I was the ugly duck and I was never a top scholar nor the best student, neither was I the most popular student in my old school, the worst kid who always got bully --- nobody would believe that.... neither do I not until I read the photo comments .... Never mind... I forgive them for their incompetence and stupidity. That's me
But can anyone tell me how can I saved my long lost spoiled image? Really don't hope to loose them as friends as time goes by... Seems like the advice in the farewell book doesn't really work...
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